erica’s abdominoplasty blog

So today I’m thinking a lot about money. My car is having some issues and my funds are particularly low. Not to mention all the day-to-day bills I have to take care of this month. But I’m waiting on a tax return and an extra paycheck this month, so there is a silver lining. All that being said, I’m thinking about paying five grand, out of pocket, for an elective surgery. I feel insane. But then I remember I’m a very financially responsible person. I’ve planned for this, I have some money saved, I’m getting some of the money loaned to me, and eventually I should be okay. Of course, money will be tight for a while.

In addition, I feel guilty about spending THAT much money on myself. Like I once told Tj, “Five thousand dollars is a garage! Or at least the start of one.” And his response? “Yeah, but you don’t live every day in your garage.” My boyfriend is pretty smart sometimes. So I try to remember that when I get those twinges of guilt.

On top of the money for the surgery, I imagine there’s going to be a lot of incidentals. Gauze, tape, medicine, and every other thing they make you buy for the recovery process. I’m sure I’ll have to buy that restrictive garment thing I have to wear for three weeks. I bet that’s not cheap. And then there’s the added cost of clothing. What if I drop a pants size? Can I afford new pants? Should I get some of my nice ones altered? I won’t know that for sure until after the surgery, so really there’s no point in worrying about it now. But my thoughts just spiral and I almost throw myself in a state of panic.

Oh the stress of being a type-a worry wart! I know things will be fine. I know I’m still doing the right thing. I have to keep telling myself that. But between now and surgery, it is so hard to turn off my brain.

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